originally victoria — unfiltered blog

You ever feel like you’re a failure or that you’re second or that no matter how hard you try, you just can’t catch up? Like everyone else is moving forward while you’re stuck in the same place, watching from the sidelines. Like when something is finally going good, boom it gets taken away or that person moves on. It’s exhausting and lonely, and sometimes it makes you question if you’re even enough. Family, this is a LIEEE of the enemy, however, it’s still a real raw feeling. It’s okay to recognize that you’re in this place of life, however, you can’t stay in that place. Recognize and reflect but quickly regroup and take intentional steps forward—growth begins where comfort ends.

I would be flat out lying if I said I haven’t felt this way before. Matter of fact, the last two weeks have felt exactly like this. Feeling like I’ve let my friends and family down. Feeling like I’m not good enough. Feeling like I don’t have what it takes. Feeling defeated. But even in this space, I’ve learned that emotions are not permanent, and failure isn’t final. What matters most is not how low you feel, but how willing you are to get back up—even if it’s just one small step at a time. Sometimes the strongest thing you can do is simply keep going. Not with grand gestures or perfect plans, but with quiet resilience. Waking up, showing up, and trying again—especially when everything in you wants to quit. I’ve had moments where I questioned my worth, where comparison robbed me of my joy, where silence felt louder than any support. But I’m still here. Still fighting. And if you’re reading this and feel the same, you’re not alone. You don’t have to have it all figured out. You don’t have to pretend you’re okay when you’re not. But what you do have to do—is believe, even if just a little, that better days are coming. Because they are. I know that sounds so cliche but it’s so true. Healing is slow and painful. Growth is uncomfortable. But please know staying stuck is not your only option. Let yourself feel, but don’t let those feelings define you. You are more than your lowest moments. You are becoming—stronger, wiser, more grounded.

In the midst of my low point the past two weeks, the Lord began to speak to me about three things: clay, brokenness, authority. Some of us are asking God to change our lives, but we refuse to sit still long enough for Him to put His hands on us. We say, “Lord, use me!” but we flinch every time He starts shaping something uncomfortable. We want the promise without the process, the purpose without the pressure. Clay doesn’t get a say in how it’s shaped. It yields. It lets go. Isaiah 64:8 reminds us: “Yet you, Lord, are our father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.” You can’t shape clay that’s fighting you. Clay is only ready to be molded when it stops resisting. As long as it’s stiff and stubborn, it won’t take form. But the moment it softens, the potter can create something beautiful. Here’s the truth: even if your clay feels ruined—cracked, hardened, or tossed aside—God isn’t done. A potter never throws away ruined or messed up clay. They burn the clay, crush it back to dust, and begin again. And God can do the same with your life. You’re never too shattered, too far gone, or too damaged for God to restore and reshape you. What the world discards, God redeems.

Some of you have been walking around defeated, beat down, and burdened when you have already been handed the keys. You’ve been asking God to do things He’s already given you authority to do. Luke 10:19 says, “Look, I have given you authority over all the power of the enemy, and you can walk among snakes and scorpions and crush them. Nothing will injure you.” Jesus didn’t say some authority—He said all. The problem is, too many of us don’t know what’s been put in our hands. We pray weak prayers when God has called us to speak boldly. We tolerate what we should cast out. We run from battles we were born to win.

Look at David. When he faced Goliath, he didn’t wait for someone to hand him courage. He didn’t borrow someone else’s authority. He said, “you come to me with sword and spear, but I come to you in the name of the Lord Almighty” (1 Samuel 17:45). That’s what authority sounds like. It’s not about your size, your background, or your strength. It’s about who backs you up. Jesus showed us this too. When He calmed the storm, He didn’t beg the winds to stop. He spoke to them. “peace, be still.” (mark 4:39) and they obeyed. Do you realize that same Jesus lives in you?

I’m writing this today to remind you—you’re not a victim. You’re not helpless. You are a child of God, filled with His Spirit, armed with His word, and backed by heaven itself. Stop waiting on someone else to fight your battle. God already gave you the authority. Now use it. Declare healing. Command peace in your home. Rebuke fear and anxiety. Stand against the enemy and remind him that he is already defeated in Jesus’ name. This is your moment to rise up and walk in the power God has given you. Don’t leave your authority sitting on the shelf. It’s time to use it.

And as you rise, remember this: you are not alone. The same power that raised Christ from the dead lives in you. Every trial, every setback, every moment of doubt is an opportunity for God’s strength to be made perfect in your weakness. Lift your head, square your shoulders, and speak life over your circumstances. You are more than a conqueror—not someday, not if things go perfectly—but right now, in the midst of it all.

The enemy may come in like a flood, but the Spirit of the Lord will raise a standard against him. Heaven is not silent. Angels are moving. Miracles are being set into motion. When you speak with authority, all of heaven backs you up. Live confidently. Pray like you believe, because faith moves mountains. This is your season to see breakthrough. This is your time to walk in victory—not by your strength, but by His Spirit. God is not finished with your story—He’s just getting started.

LOVE YOU, FAMILY! WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER ♡